I actually slept through the dark this morning. But not my coffee!
Sitting on the front porch with Maddie on guard. She makes sure the barn cats don’t attack me. Listening to the birds chatter back and forth. We have a mocking bird that hangs around, wonder if I can teach it to sing an Eagles song. The fall weather is here this morning. There is a chill in the air giving me goosebumps. A heavy dew making everything sparkle, no wind, overcast skies.
A much needed break from all the insanity.
The perfect time to breathe and go over the past week. Successes, failures, make a mental To Do list for next week, then forget it.
Enjoy the fresh air. Enjoy my fur baby time. She is normally at the shop all day. She loves me, sort of, when Daddy is not around. 😬😁
This is me time. I take advantage of it every chance I get. During the week it may be quiet time in the dark, but Saturdays are mine. I can be lazy, stay in my gown all day, visit friends, have a pamper day, go out to eat, read a book, write a book for that matter. Quiet time is healing time. Refilling the cup time. Recharging those batteries time. YOUR time.
It is also time you will never get back. Once its gone, its gone. So take advantage when you have it. Share it or be stingy with it. Just make it happen.
I am going to refill my coffee and enjoy another cup. Possibly make myself and Maddie a little breakfast and enjoy each others company.
I had a chat last week with someone about being in school.
The big, home made pizzas and how you could get seconds. Home made kolaches full of fruit, hot rolls….the kitchen ladies rocked! It was ok to eat all that because they sent us outside to burn off all that carb energy. The games we played are no more. Tether ball. Dodge ball, metal slides, jungle gyms. The conversation stirred up all kinds of memories.
I didn’t realize how much of my childhood to include high school I had tucked away and forgot. I saw an old friend from school yesterday that brought a few of those forward. I could have sat and talked for hours, maybe we will again soon. It made my heart happy. We all have memories, good and bad that don’t come forward until someone mentions it, a song comes on, a smell or even a Deja vu moment.
I love posting on Facebook asking my friends to write a memory about me. When you hear my name, what’s the first memory that pops in your head. If you ever need cheering up or help getting out of a funk, this is what you need to do. If you feel like your life doesn’t really matter, your existence has no meaning, or just need to smile. Do this! I have smiled, laughed, cried and found out things I never knew. I had someone give me a bullet once, told me it was chambered and they were going to end their life with it until I started talking with them. Not about suicide, I knew nothing about those thoughts, but everyday stuff. A good morning text, have a great day, sharing something that happened at work. I still have that bullet. I guess its proof I mattered to someone. Proof I am here for a reason. Keep making memories and ask others to share theirs. Let someone know the impact they had on you. It may be the one thing that makes them feel good about themselves. Ah, memories, I need more of them jogged, I have decades of them covered in dust and spider webs. Share your favorite memory of us, here or in private message if you prefer. And I will do the same. Oops, my coffee is gone and time to get ready for work. Have a memory making day! Hope you hear from you soon! Lorene
I missed my quiet coffee time yesterday. I was at work by 4:45 and stayed busy until I left at 4. Long day but productive. I do need ME time.
Guess I’ve spoiled myself. Nothing wrong with that. My coffee seems to taste better this morning. My cool dark room more calming. I’m not always alone in the morning. My early bird friends exchange good mornings and well wishes for the day.
Keeping in touch has never been easier. I still fail at it. Its times like this I think about someone but it’s too early for a text, then life happens and it’s too late to text.
Know this. I think about you. I miss your faces. I miss real conversations. I miss your hugs. I miss time together. We all have schedules, some busy, some crazy. Always on the go. My calendar is usually filled with some activity. But most mornings about 5 am. You can find me, coffee in hand, cool dark room with my thoughts. If you are up, send me a message. I’d love to hear from you. Maybe we can make it on each others calendars. If not, touching base is the next best thing. Just knowing you thought about me today makes me smile. I think about you. I’ll get better at letting you know. I love you my family and friends.
I know this is a blanket hello for now, but I am thinking about how I miss you. So, good morning! Have a wonderful, productive and blessed day! Hugs 🤗 and kisses, 💋 Lorene
Ever watch the move Click with Adam Sandler? I remember thinking, Now THAT’S a Universal remote! In 2006 I had kids in the house and what I wouldn’t do to click PAUSE once in a while.
This year, I feel the same way. And not just because it is 2020. Life just seems to fly by so fast. My babies have babies, one of them is 17! Where did time go? If I owned a UNIVERSAL remote, just how would I wield that power?
Well, let’s hit the list button to see what I have recorded in my memories.
High school follies… Oh my, I could sit and watch this all day. And not because I was a Brickhouse back then, but I had some amazing friends. Some of which are still in contact. Skipping school, sitting on the patio, working at Pizza Hut, driving the Roach, being kidnapped by friends and taken to Six Flags, that 70 Chevelle. I’d love to have that car now. Graduation, Geronimo…. And both my parents alive and watching over me.
Adulthood part 1…out on my own. After graduation I just knew I was ready to be out on my own. Room mates yes, but out of the parents house. Little did I know at that time I was going to be a mother. Daddy moved me back home saying there was no way I was having a baby without them. He passed 5 months after she was born. I’m glad he was able to enjoy a grand child. Maybe that was God’s plan. He knew Dad’s end of time and wanted to bless him one more time and figured I was up to the challenge. I am good with that. Single mother for 2 years. Talk about a challenge. I remember writing letters to my baby, telling her I would do my best to make her life wonderful. Everything about her grandfather and how he was there for her at the beginning. I wish I still had those.
Adulthood part 2…military wife I married my high-school sweetheart. He had joined the military and we did a tour in Germany where my second child was born. New friends made and then found on Facebook later to keep in touch. Our marriage ended but our friendship remains. We co parented the best we could and did what was best for our daughters. I must say, they turned out amazing!
Adulthood part 3…Goodyear Working in a plant was tough at first. Back to being a single mom. Met my second husband there. Yes, I have them numbered. We were good for each other at the time. We had a blended family and that was a big challenge. I took with me lessons from that marriage. I dont regret that relationship at all. His family is still my family, but he and I don’t keep in touch. I do wish him happiness, we just couldn’t give that to each other. More friends made and my 3rd and final husband met.
Adulthood part 4…becoming and being a Lulu I worked with Troy for close to 12 years before we dated. I was divorced and he had lost his beautiful wife in a car accident. God put us both in the right place and the right time for each other. He needed a strong woman to help him and I needed to be a strong force for someone. And the match made in heaven has been successful. The lessons I learned from blending families, being independent, positive, motivating and hard headed has come to be useful. He is a blessing for me also. He has helped me be the person I truly am. Pushed me to do things I never would have thought possible. Not a night passes that when my head hits my pillow, my prayers include thanks for that man and in the morning thanks for another day. Maybe in reality, he is the strong force.
I look back at the relationships I’ve had and I have learned from each of them. Good, bad, indifferent. That remote would have come in handy here and there, lol. But mostly to rewind and enjoy the fun over and over. Rewind and watch my babies laugh, see my parents dance and hug them one more time.
I have so many recordings, I will have to finish another time. I’ve taken enough of your time if you’ve made it to here. Let you peek into my life a little bit more. 56 years is a lot of time to cover. But thinking about it and reminiscing is good for the soul. Love big my friends, Lorene
I rarely comment on the gossip, buy, sell etc. Pages. It seems no one can have an opinion with out someone else telling them they don’t know what they are talking about. I find it funny when the person they are addressing actually does, it’s their profession and the troll hasn’t a clue. I refuse to banter with someone who disagrees with me in a social media forum. So we disagree. Agree to disagree. I am not going to tell you that you are wrong. I’m not going to start a 826 comment argument. I have better things to do with my time. When the notification pops up that you think I’m an idiot, I just smile. I heard it’s best to let people THINK you are an idiot than to open your mouth and remove all doubt. Or was it never have a match of wits with an unarmed man. Hmmmm. I will sit here and enjoy my life no matter what people think of my opinions. I’ve learned that I am responsible for my own happiness, what to avoid and what to let in. So, the above is my opinion. Take it or leave it, read it or not. No negativity. My thoughts for what they are worth. Love you all, have a happy life! It’s in your hands. Lorene
Friday the 13th. Full moon. Nothing scary right? Well, unless you are a police officer, medic or ER staff. The moon has powers. It pulls oceans in different directions. We are 70% water. Explains a lot. There is a nice rain this morning too. Not loud. But steady. I can see it falling on the road out front. Heavy enough for a raincoat making it ponytail day. No sense in trying to tame this mop i have. It IS Friday. Yay! The favorite child of the week. The ending of work for most and the beginning of the weekend. Sometimes a payday. Fridays always seem to scream YOU MADE IT! Enjoy this lucky day, and your weekend. Don’t ruin it dreading Monday. Monday is going to happen. No use in ruining your weekend fretting about it. Enjoy today. Throw that hair in a ponytail. Face the sky. Feel the rain on your face. Freedom…..it comes in mysterious ways… Well, since I don’t have to fix my hair, I think I’ll sit and enjoy another cup of coffee before I let the moon follow me into work today. Have a blessed weekend my friends. Lorene
I just want to sit with my coffee this morning. I do not want to adult today. Is there a way I can unsubscribe to adulthood? It’s really not working out for me. Well, it’s not that bad, but a vacation from it every once in a while would be nice. A full week of no responsibilities, deadlines, alarm clocks, clothes, errands, schedules, time clocks, laundry, housework, mowing. Just time. Cold pizza for breakfast and pancakes for dinner. With whipped cream even. Midnight ice cream sundaes and potato chips in bed. 24 hours of scooby do, Josie and the pussycats and the coyote and the road runner. Scary movies and a sleep over, giggling until all hours of the night. Sleeping with the light on. Oh dear, my cup is empty. Back to reality. No vacation here. The thought was fun. And for about half an hour, I didn’t adult. I closed my eyes and remembered an innocent time. No need to disappear for a week, just a healthy reminder to refresh my thoughts, breathe in positivity and exhale my worries. Big girl panties, coffee infused, mind set, yep, I’m ready! Let’s do this! Lorene
My mind is wandering this morning. Coffee in hand, dark cool room, some thought is usually front and forward. Not today. Before I was out of bed, multiple thoughts were rushing in. Its 9-11 😪 The team meeting I held yesterday. Catering this morning. Golf tournament meals. What to wear. I need coffee. I need a vacation. Don’t wake Troy and Maddie. Aflac business I hope my cashier feels better. I’m opening cook Monday. Don’t forget to reset Mondays alarm. I have evaluations to do. Fire training this morning. Flu shots for staff. Salvation army board meeting today. It’s only Wednesday? 🙄 Finish next weeks menu. Write schedule. Work on policies and procedures. Schedule mini team meetings. Don’t forget time lines. Visit the city manager. My cup is empty, my day is full. It’s almost like I made a to do list. I’m sure a look inside my mind made you shake your head. Or laugh. I wish there were words of wisdom swirled in there somewhere. 😂🤣 What it tells me is I’m living. So I don’t complain. I take a deep breath, exhale any negativity and move forward. I may or may not finish the to do list for the day, or unscramble my morning thoughts by noon, but I will enjoy each breath I take, each smile I see today and each accomplishment I make. I woke up on the right side of the dirt yet another day, I’m going to live it to its fullest. My day is calling a little louder than normal this morning, so…. Have a blessed day. Lorene
Mmmm hazelnut coffee. Every sip brings memories. A friend introduced me to it many years ago. What is something you love or partake in because of a friend or loved one? Coffee with sweetened condensed milk and buttered toast to dip in it takes me back to winters and my mother. I will do that on days I’m really missing her. I opened a new bottle of perfume yesterday. Closed my eyes and took in the scent. Another memory. Sometimes memories can help me make it thru the day. Snippets of my life that made me laugh, cry, snort coffee through my nose…. Maybe a song comes on the radio and takes you to a place even Dorothy and Toto would be jealous. A smell, sound, movie, meal…. Isn’t it wonderful we have memories? Can you imagine starting new every day? Nothing to fall back on, nothing to help guide you, no what would daddy do moments? What an awful existence. Memories make us who we are. And molds our future. Something we all have in common. How many times have you heard….Do you remember when…? And a smile appears on your face. You feel your body relax, your heart rate slows, you close your eyes and relive that moment. Happiness We need more of it. Make it a point to pull out those memories when you most need them. Share them with someone that may need a smile. Most importantly, Make new ones. Be a part of someone else’s. Be the reason someone smiles. Last sip of coffee. Work beckons. Adulting must begin. Have a wonderful memory making day! Lorene
It’s cold this morning. The best part of fall weather is an open window, Cold room, thick covers and a snuggle buddy. The worse part is having to get out from under those covers. This was one of those mornings I wanted to be selfish, turn off the alarm and roll back over, Big Daddy on one side and Maddie on the other. My paradise. But I am up. Halfway through my coffee, still have a blanket around me, but writing this and motivating myself for the day. Why? Adulting. Responsibility My Conscious, yes others need time off more than me. I can wait my turn. I would feel guilty and wouldn’t be able to enjoy myself. But that’s just me. I know the world revolves around me, but I don’t mind taking turns. 😁 Helping each other should be a priority as much as self help. I will enjoy limited snuggles for now. And crawl out into the cold world this morning. I’ll just bundle up. So if you see me, hug me! Body heat does wonders and hugs are magical. Like this coffee. Made from magical beans…. Best potion on a cool morning. Have your best day today. Crawl out from under your blankets and Carpe Diem my friends! Grab that cup of motivation and conquer what life throw at you. You got this. We got this. Love Big! Lorene
