The birds have been loud the past few mornings. I dont know if this is the norm and I just never paid any attention or if they have something new to chat about at 5 am.
I am only semi isolated. I’m considered essential right now. Most hospital employees are at the moment. I go to work, our shop and home. Pretty much the same schedule as before CV19.
With the exception of weekends. My time to socialize, shop and just get out. Maybe brunch with friends, window shopping, a visit with grandbabies.
These things I miss.
However I am experiencing new things during this “safe at home” time.
Like the birds first thing in the morning. Listening to them call out and answer, wondering what they are saying. Are they warning that the barn cat is in the yard? Or just good morning? Maybe they are handing out assignments for the day, nest building, food hunting, that sort of thing.
It’s fun to use my imagination to form those conversations and relaxing to just hear the sounds of nature.
Sitting on the deck and just enjoying the weather and the company of Big Daddy, loving and cuddling with fur baby Maddie.
The neighbors horse at the fence asking for a treat. Feeding him corn on the cob and listening to him talk and stomp around. Listening to the swarm of bees overhead playing in the blossoms of the red bud tree.
Noticing all the stars on a clear sky night. The brightness, alignment, the moon. From my porch, there is very little light pollution. The sky seems lit up with glitter, scattered across black velvet.
I’m reminded of the time when Troy asked me to move out here. He said he had something he wanted me to see. He took me outside on the porch. It was a dark, cool night, and said look up. I was amazed at how bright and crisp the stars looked. Prettier than any diamond he could have offered.
I am rediscovering that now.
Some people think of this time as being stuck at home. I think of it as having quality time. I don’t get as much as some people having to go to work daily, but I am making the best of the time at home. Well, except when I binge watched Tiger King, that jury is still out.
I am taking the time to enjoy nature. Actually pay attention to all the sights, smells and sounds.
Maybe this is what the doctor ordered.
Reevaluating how I spend my time, things I take for granted and what I’ve been missing in my every day rush.
I miss seeing my family and friends. But they aren’t missing, we just have to communicate a little differently for a while. Missing someone is healthy. It makes you think about WHY you miss them. Which in turn makes you appreciate them even more.
I predict when this is over and life returns to normal, our normal will be much different.
Hugs will be tighter, kisses longer, priorities will realign and we will all be a little richer for it.
Slow down, stop, smell the flowers, gaze at the stars, close your eyes and listen to nature wake up.
Lorene
Month: April 2021
Check the facts
Its beautiful this morning, I have the window open and the breeze feels phenomenal!
It may actually make my coffee taste better.
If that’s even possible.
The breeze reminds me its spring. Of course in Oklahoma the weather can make you forget about Covid-19 in a flash of lightning. Bringing on another fear in people.
Fear brings on stress, anxiety and panic.
What brings on fear?
For me?
Not knowing.
Lack of information.
When I cant put together a plan of action for the situation.
When I am out of control of my life at a particular moment.
Stay informed on the things you are fearful. Don’t listen to gossip or repeat it.
Check the facts.
Hit the websites of authority not public opinion.
Find the calm weatherman.
Be a step ahead.
Being prepared has a calming effect.
It turns fear into courage.
Making decisions in a calm state of mind are thought out and not rushed. Made with a sense of urgency but not panic.
Courage isn’t about being a hero.
Its fear wrapped in knowledge.
Enjoy the breeze.
Sit, sip your coffee.
Enjoy the solitude around you.
Enjoy your own company.
I am here for you.
I am praying for you.
All of you.
Stay safe
Lorene ❤❤
It’s me! 2020
Yes, these are both me.
I was shocked to say the least when this pic popped up on my memories timeline. I thought it was my mother at first glance, in her 60s.
The picture on the left is from 2016, the right is this morning. Both are first thing in the morning and no filters.
The difference?
I changed my diet, routine skine care regiment and of course changed my mind about being gray.
I also keep negativity at arms length.
Surround myself with the right people.
Positive people.
My attitude changed too.
I decided being positive, meditating and enjoying life to the fullest was a priority.
It’s amazing how happiness can “Un Age” you.
I did visit that White Room during those 4 years. Life changing to say the least. I do know it was then I decided I would live as long and as healthy as God allowed.
Appreciate my second chance.
And be happy doing it.
Maybe catching a glimpse of the other side took most of my fears away. Changed my attitude towards life and how I live it.
I am grateful and blessed.
I just wanted to share this transformation, most of it comes from within.
Who knows, maybe 2024 I’ll be at super model status.
One can only hope….
❤
Lorene
Dreaming march 26 2020
I just want to sleep today.
For some reason, my body is just tired. Or maybe its my brain. Whichever, I just want to stay snuggled up and sleeping.
There is something about closing my eyes and making the world go away. The day to day stuff no longer matters. It is all put on hold.
Then the dreams.
I love to dream.
This is the time my brain sleeps and my subconscious takes over.
There are times my dream seems like I am going through channels, seeing snippets of what’s on, moving through them. None of them making a lot of sense.
There are the reruns. Dreams I have more than once. Maybe not the entire dream, but the concept, or a place I keep revisiting.
Dreams of every day things with a twist. People in your dreams wearing weird clothes, or working a job that doesn’t make sense . Interaction with people you may or may not know. Kind of boring dreams.
Nightmares
As a child I had them where I would wake screaming at the top of my lungs, bringing mom from the other end of the house to calm me down.
I don’t have monster dreams in the sense of big teeth, claws or horns. Sometimes being chased, which I know is a dream because I do not run. Lol.
A physically dark dream, no sunshine, maybe mist or fog making it scary as I travel through it alone.
I don’t remember each dream, sometimes days later something will trigger a memory. Sometimes a de ja vu moment.
What I dreamed becomes real life.
All the while I am wrapped up in bed, on the couch or even in the car with Troy driving. (That’s trust right there)
Safe
I love to dream.
Asleep and awake.
We all need to dream.
We bring about what we speak about. And we deserve to experience it all. You will receive what you expect and voice aloud. Be sure its your dreams and not negative thoughts.
Have a blessed day, dream big and love even bigger.
Lorene