Good morning
I haven’t written much since my surgery. I thought I’d have all this free time sitting at home, bored.
Well, I am.
I am sleeping in, taking naps, vegging out. Basically trying not to think too much.
I have a hard time doing what the doctor tells me to do.
Maybe it makes me feel weak.
Helpless.
Useless.
I know my body needs the rest.
I’ll go back to work Monday with the promise it is just desk duty for the next 3 weeks. Pushing papers. Oh joy, my favorite past time.
Time to get my brain back to functioning and focusing on priorities.
This week seemed long and drawn out, I didn’t think I’d ever feel better. My bellybutton is still mad, but my soreness has subsided. Only the first night did I hurt enough for a pain pill. After that it’s been Aleve and coffee.
Yes, it still hurt, but a manageable pain. For that I am grateful.
I feel like I’ve wasted a week sitting at home binge watching the Vampire Diaries. I am not used to doing nothing for so long. Is this what staycations feel like? I haven’t driven all week, or left the house other than the front porch.
I may venture out this weekend.
Brunch is always nice.
I’m not worried about the coronavirus, I wash my hands. I’ve had the flu and pulled thru it. I wouldn’t go out in public if I felt ill.
Most of all, I wont panic.
I’m mentally ready to get back to being me. Go go go….
My body isn’t quite there, but it’s trying to catch up and I’ll be patient.
I may play in the kitchen this weekend. Cook something out of the ordinary.
Or write.
It’s time to give Big Daddy a break. He has been such a great care giver to me. I normally don’t let him, i do things for myself, but this time I just enjoyed watching him buzz around me, making sure I was comfortable. Cooking amazing meals when I finally felt like eating. All after a long day at the shop. It sounds selfish, I know. If you know us, you know its not. Neither of us want to be a burden to the other, but both of us love being able to take care of each other. Being able to spoil the other just a bit, take a little stress away, show our love yet another way.
Letting go of a little independence, allowing the other to do things for us, is our way of saying I love you, and i know you will protect me if I ever cant protect myself. I trust you with my well being, my life. I know I am not a burden , I am your other half, and you are the same for me. We are in this together. Forever.
I love you Big Daddy.
Love Big!
Lorene
