This morning, while washing my face, I looked up to see the real Lorene I guess.
I’ve always said I see a 25 year old in the mirror. That’s how old I feel inside my heart and head. But this morning I saw a sagging neck and cheeks, creases around my mouth, on my forehead and eyes. I’m watching the gray make its way through my hair.
I noticed gray in an eyebrow. My eyelids are hooded a bit more than normal. Getting out of bed in the morning in a physical chore. Until the blood starts flowing I feel like I need a walker.
Heads don’t turn like they used to, I don’t have that figure that fit into jeans and t shirts.
My body seems to have out aged me.
I refuse to feel my age, that’s not an option. I do want to grow old gracefully but not just yet. I don’t know how many years, days or hours the Lord will allow me left on this earth, but I do plan on taking advantage of each and every minute.
I have dreams yet to fulfil, great grandchildren I’ve yet to hold.
How many times have you said, “is it Friday yet?” If you are like me, at least every Monday thru Thursday.
How many times have you said “wow, where did the time go?” Maybe not as many, but that question can be daunting.
Just yesterday I was 30 something, raising babies, waiting tables, graduating high school, riding my bike with friends, enjoying my first kiss, waiting on that first grandbaby to arrive, sitting on my dad’s lap, having sweet coffee and toast with my mom.
The older I get, the faster time slips by. I need a pause button! Enjoy each moment.
Life doesn’t have a rewind or pause option. Once that moment is gone, you cant get it back.
Only memories remain. Live life to its fullest. Eat that dessert, take that trip, check off your bucket list. Make life a “I’m glad I did” and not a “wish I had” experience.
Didn’t take long for my ME time to fly by. Back to our regular scheduled program. Have a fantabulous day! Lorene
Mmmm, coffee, dark cool room and silence. It doesn’t take much to make me happy.
Honest I wouldn’t be any happier with tons of money, money isn’t an indicator of happiness. Yeah yeah, more money wouldn’t hurt, don’t get me wrong, but it just gives you more material things. There are a lot of lonely rich people and some die with only the things money bought them.
I have so much more than money can buy. Family, friends, health. What makes you happy? Think about it.
Something that cost little to no money. The sweet sound of your grandchild voice on the phone, a good morning text from your bestie, an old movie and popcorn on the couch with your spouse wrapped in a blanket. How about sitting on the porch watching a beautiful sunset? Sitting in your car until the end of a favorite song. Listening to the rain on a metal roof. Having your fur baby curled up next to you.
Happiness is free. You just have to make your own. You are in charge of your own happiness. Right now, mine is listening to the soft snore coming from the bedroom while sipping coffee in a cool dark room while sharing my thoughts.
I hope reading them brings you a little happiness. Lorene
I was one of those kids that believed the moon followed me. It did follow me to work this morning, lighting the way. Shining bright in the clear sky. Not enough brilliance to light the day, but perfect for a romantic night or a relaxing walk under the stars.
The moon’s time to shine. We all have our time to shine. At different stages in life. Not everyone will shine like the sun, out there making the spotlight, sometimes blinding people with their aura.
Some will shine like the moon, equally beautiful, with an inner light as bright as the sun. Reflecting on others and having a way to share the spotlight. A light you can look straight into and feel. One that doesn’t make you squint or turn away. A light that creates inner warmth.
The physical pull from the moon, the one that moves oceans. The phases that change and compliments the earth, yet is always there. It doesn’t hide in the darkness, it leads the way.
We are all light. And each of us shine in our own way. Some of us are front and center. Brighter than most, quickly find our light and show the world. And some of us shine when others don’t. In our own time. We shine brighter to those like us. Help pull their light out and show them how beautiful they are. So different, yet so the same.
Whether you are as bright as the sun or moon, remember, your light is a beacon for others. Each shining in our own way, in our own time. Be patient with yourself and others. Sometimes it takes a fracture for the light to shine through. Which makes the light even more amazing. Shine bright Love big Lorene
I am actually drinking my Happy coffee at home this morning. I am pausing for me. This is my space My house noises. My blanket, its chilly this morning.
Of course I am not dressed yet, I am comfortable. That is part of my morning routine. When I waver from that routine, my day seems off I enjoy my quiet time. I replay the dreams I had and try to analyze them. I meditate.
Close my eyes.. Breathe in full and deep, filling my lungs with positive forces that surround me. I imagine all the good flooding my body, healing sore muscles and recharging me. As I exhale I see all all the negative, hurt and soreness leave.
I sip my warm magical brew, feeling the effects all over me. The warmth that lingers and spreads through me. My senses waking and making sense of the day. The calming I feel. The energy to get ready to slay the day. Pulling together all my natural forces.
Time is precious. We all want to spend it with those we love because we are not guaranteed a certain amount. Remember to spend some of it alone, learning to love you and knowing you are worth the time. Remind yourself you are a force to be reckoned with, you are strong and you can move mountains. And most importantly, You can Love Big. Lorene
Be someone that makes someone look forward to tomorrow.
Go back and read that again. Those aren’t my words. But I did repeat them several times this morning. And they got me to thinking.
I have people in my life that make tomorrow worth waking up to and life more exciting. People I cant wait to see, text, hear from, hug, kiss or just watch in action. People who make work feel not so much like work. People who make me feel like I make a difference in their lives.
I try to have a smile for everyone. It may be the only one they see. Being positive and motivating isn’t just healthy for you, it can spread like wild fire. Light that match, be that spark.
Someone is waiting and watching for you to make their day a little more bearable. Waiting for you to make them laugh or just smile. You make a difference. Yes, you. So what are you waiting for? Go on, scoot! Times a wasting! Lorene
I miss going to the movies. The hot buttered popcorn, drinks in the balcony, larger than life adventures on the big screen. Entertainment I love being entertained. Actors can make me laugh or cry, get mad at a character or have empathy for one. They are famous and public figures but also just like you and me.
Just with a special talent to take you to another place on the silver screen. I don’t care what religion they practice, who they are sleeping with or who they think should or shouldn’t be president. None of my business and I just don’t care.
I want them to entertain me. That’s what the ticket price is for. Period.
Movies are just one form of entertainment. So if they disappeared, that’s ok, for us. The ones getting paid, well, it would matter. Just like our careers. If they disappeared we would be job hunting, no multimillion dollar projects for the majority.
Books are a way to use your imagination to the fullest. You picture the characters, scenery, smells, colors, all of it, using descriptions on a page. You are the director of your own movie.
When a book I’ve read gets turned into a movie, sometimes its disappointing. My version is so much more vivid. This is why you often hear, “the book was better”. Being able to entertain yourself keeps us from going crazy. You can be alone but not lonely.
You have you and that’s pretty damn good company.
Grab a book, a cup of coffee or glass of wine, wrap up in a blanket on the couch and turn to page one of your next adventure. The rest of the world will just fade away. Maybe that’s the cure for 2020.
A good book. Grab a classic. Visit a place you’ve never been before, meet exciting people and jump in with both feet. Love big Lorene
She is pouting because Daddy didn’t take her to the shop. Being told no sucks. Sometimes it’s for our own good and we don’t even realize it.
Like the ones growing up… Moms and dads say it almost instinctively. No, you cant stay later than curfew, no you cant date that older boy, no you cant wear all that makeup and hell no, those shorts need to be in the trash, you’re not a hooker!
All those prayers you begged for something or someone and it never happened. You know the ones. Think back now, did you dodge a bullet? Would a yes have put you on the wrong track?
God knew what he was doing. How about when you have to tell yourself no. When all the no’s from the past became experience and now you see why you have to be strong and tell yourself that is not a good idea. Sometimes a no pushes us to be stronger. We should have gotten a yes, but it wasn’t time.
We work harder and strive to get or be what we want to be so no is not an option. No is a powerful word. It can protect you. Disappoint you. Refocus you. Strengthen you.
In Maddie’s case this morning, it may have disappointed her, but her snuggles make mom happy, and she gets over being mad. When you are told no, Stop Look at the big picture Move forward. Love you all! Lorene
What the world needs now is a Super hero. One with the power to stop time. Freeze frame life at this point and let the world have time to heal. Heal itself from the hatred, power mongering, deception, money hunger, lack of empathy and respect. Give us time to Reconnect with one another, learn gratitude, brotherly love, patriotism, kindness. As I flip through the news channels, I see the fighting in the streets, riots, burning down what took so long to build. Not just buildings but society. I wish I had the power to just say STOP!
And it would. Because no one is listening to reason right now. They are only seeing and hearing what they want to see and hear. Its like a bunch of toddlers that hate Mom and Dad because they didn’t get their way and showing the terrible 2’s on the adult scale. And Mom and Dad are sitting back instead of busting some butt in fear they won’t love them anymore.
Well, its time for some tough love. And it may take a village or two, but it needs to stop. When there is fighting amongst ourselves, it is easy for the enemy to sneak right in and take control. We need to stand together. We don’t have to agree. But we do need to be mature and protect what we have built for so many years. Together
Siblings are notorious for messing with each other one way or another, but when an outsider messes with one, the others are there to protect them. We are all brothers and sisters. This is our home. We never destroy our home. It is our safe haven. The free world. Land of the free because of the brave. And its the only one we have.